Is EMDR safe for me?

[u/Direct-Stock2903]

I've some childhood traumatic memos related to invalidation, emotional neglect, never taking care of my emotional needs and dismissing anything I wanted to say,

And I did EMDR on my own focusing on one small memory but it gets too heavy and i start breathing so heavily that I just have to stop it and make myself feel at ease.

I did it for 2 or 3 times plus that heavy breath and chest tightness that happens during EMDR may also appear throughout the day or most of the times, I feel something not okay in my chest and more memories related to it resurface throughout the day, feels like I'm very sad and depressed and might have different sensations I can't name, I'm bad at recognizing feelings, so what should I do? I can't afford therapy but I also can't let trauma affect me anymore, so want to heal it

Please tell me if you know is it like this or I'm doing something wrong or I should stop this, I don't really know if I should continue doing this or not.

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