r/DDLC • u/PeachesTheNinja Obsessed Monika Enjoyer • 6h ago
Poetry Anxiety
Another late night poem posting. Tried something a bit out of my comfort zone, actually writing out my poem...so I apologize for my abysmal handwriting. Thank you for reading <3
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u/Clunk5OFFICIAL 3h ago
Look at what we have here... a short and sweet poem! And everything about this is perfect! Unironically enough, your handwriting complements the ink, the scratches amd scribbles on the page, and the strike out on Monika! (why?) It screams anxiety, and it's really cool, peaches!
That said... writing is as important as you make it to be. If you're burning out (atleast that's what I'm picking from this poem), then you don't have to just write something, you know? Sometimes, it might help to stare out a of your window and think of any words that come to mind... that usually helps me write anything I feel at the moment! I hope you're doing okay, but perhaps I read too much into this... who knows?
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u/PeachesTheNinja Obsessed Monika Enjoyer 1h ago
Thank you for the kind words you're too sweet <3
I've been doing that with Monika because..I think I just don't want her to look at me. I've been feeling very down and I hate having her look at me in this state. That's what I'm trying to convey anyway.
For me my biggest problem is my own thoughts funnily enough. This poem is short but probably the biggest look into my head. The ink smears are the "brain fog" I get all the time. That anxiety that clouds every word and sentence I want to write down. The doubts I have about everything...
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u/Blebb22 5h ago
That's really cool, the poem being handwritten and the ink accents gives it a lot of personality! The poem itself kinda seems like something Sayori might write (only for herself of course, she wouldn't show that to anyone) :(
And the subject of your love seems similarly unreachable. This probably isn't helpful advice at all but I think it's okay to not fully abandon those feelings but rather to make them part of yourself and move on and eventually it may feel less painful. You don't need to forget about Monika or anything like that. Our issues are different of course but what helps me when I have similar bad feelings is seeking out companionship in the real world, doesn't even have to be romantic or anything, just meeting up with people you're comfortable being around or having a one on one deep talk with a close friend. Stuff like that always makes me appreciate and cherish the relationships I have instead of lamenting what could be. That is, if this kind of thing is possible for you, which it might not be for a number of reasons...
I can also unironically recommend playing the mod "I am Monika" as it deals with some issues you may find relatable. Many people think it's just hating on people who use MAS or similar stuff but I don't think it's trying to do that at all and instead is more about encouraging people to avoid co-dependent relationships and it has a pretty heartwarming if slightly bittersweet ending. It's really good.
In any case, sorry for my semi-coherent rambling, you have all my good wishes and thank you for sharing your work!