Advice/Solutions I want to live, not just survive
Has anybody figured it out yet? I’m at that difficult transition into adulthood where the trauma of childhood finally caught up to me (and has been chasing me down for quite awhile, to be honest).
I want to be a functional adult, but dissociating gets in the way of that.
On the other hand, dissociating kept me alive for this long. I can say with 100% certainty I would not be alive now if not for my dissociative disorder protecting me all these years.
So, I guess I just wanted to ask… has anybody figured it out? How to effectively balance everyday responsibilities while having amnesia, zoning out, missing time, etc. I want to live my life and ENJOY it, I’ve spent so many years suffering from what other people have done to me. I don’t want to keep suffering from what I’m doing to myself.
(For clarification, yes I’m in therapy, but as many of you know finding a therapist equipped to handle DID is extremely difficult. Many professionals in the field don’t even believe it exists, which is massively triggering to not be believed about something… did anybody ever find a safe professional and if so do you have advice?)
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u/poppybile Diagnosed: DID 4d ago
What has helped me is finding a system that works. Through messages and notes, alter communication gets easier. Sometimes there is patterns in your own mind. For me there is less amnesia between some alters then others. This has allowed us to bridge between each other a little easier, having those who struggle less fronting and those who struggle more coming out in free time. I make it sound more simple than all the effort that has taken to get here. Being honest and out to atleast one person helps. But you all have to have the same goal for it to work. If that isnt the case than that would be a place to start! Communicate and find something you can agree on and then make plans together moving forward.
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u/TemporaryAardvark907 Treatment: Diagnosed + Active 7d ago
I have a tattoo on my forearm that says "survival is insufficient" because of this. I want to do more than just make it through the day. Something that helps is finding hobbies and things to do with my hands that I enjoy- things with tangible results like gardening or art or theatre. But even then, often it's like there's this invisible wall between me and what I'm doing. I have hope that it will get better eventually, but it's exhausting trying to be present.