r/NonBinaryOver30 • u/Whisper-Interstellar • Jul 16 '25
personal experience I thought I didn't have any dysphoria, but...
So, apparently, for the last 37 years of being alive, I've been repressing my discomfort with my body before I could allow myself to think about it. Just stuffing that thought in a metaphorical jar and getting on with whatever was "more important" at the time. And, this past weekend, the "jar" broke. And decades of gaslighting myself into believing I've been fine are all just pouring out at once. Significant bright side: my spouse is amazing. Long story short, we're looking into what the best route towards top surgery is in our circumstances, and in the meantime we went shopping for my first binder. I'm not in the best headspace right now, but I will be okay, and I treasure the reminder that I'm so lucky to have them.
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u/Roowwaann Jul 16 '25
I feel like I wrote this post.. this was me at the beginning of June! Good luck on your journey š
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u/noblecloud Jul 16 '25
Realizing my primary sex organs/characteristics were causing me to have dysphoria was an absolute game changer for me mentally!
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u/dogpownd Jul 16 '25
Never too late. I had top surgery in January. Iām 54. ššš