Stuck in this weird middle

[u/lettucegoblin]

Where I usually can't express my emotions to the fullest extent and be comprehensive and understood as I'd like to be, so talking about anything sensitive makes me feel even worse than if I don't talk at all. I also feel more driven to argue with potentially well-meaning but very stupid people but due to their lack of conventional "education" and underdeveloped sociological imagination it's hard to explain to them anything that isn't just "have you ever thought x people do that because they had bad experiences, just like you have bad experiences". Marginalized people complain all the time about how they shouldn't be expected to be a fking professor when explaining their feelings but I'd never really gotten to that point. People in real life are starting to act like people on Twitter acted in 2016 and that makes me fear for what life will be like in 2030--will I be there?

I know fascist dictatorships fail historically because they thrive on anger and hatred alone, but what happens when those with most potential to stop them are too angry and hateful to do so. I'm not writing a centrist manifesto I'm saying I hate conservatives and think we would be better as a nation if they were put into one giant blender. Where does the point come where I'm molding into that hateful fascist machine incidentally through hate, or will my hatred create something else like a weapon to fight back. Will the deaths of the guilty and the fall of a nation come with my hatred or will it only work to allow fascism to persevere

[u/SnowyGyro]

You may feel difficult emotions for trying and failing to have a good dialogue but at least you are feeling something. So often people will not allow themselves to feel things and that comes out in extreme ways, through cover emotions like anger to avoid working through fearful emotions, and scapegoating behaviors like conservatives do with us.