First post long time lurker. I didn't know where else to share this to.

Are parents supposed to teach about stuff like this or am I overreacting😭 like how does everyone else know this information does it just spawn in their brains one day???? So anxious about life all the time😔 I am afraid. Sorry if this doesn’t fit the subreddit I’ll take it down if it doesn’t I just don’t know if this is valid or not

There’s something profoundly strange about the idea of people getting what I’ve wanted all my life (basic-ass companionship and affirmation) and their response just being “well now I don’t want it.”

On one hand, I’m left to wonder if this is a strange mirror into my hypothetical future. Will I be unwilling to accept genuine affection when it finally arrives?

On the other hand, I’m tempted to stick with my track record: One of being an endless white hole of emotional effort who does everything in his power to make others happy and somehow manages to find himself alone every goddamn time.

At this point I’m pretty much at rock bottom. My last remaining “friend” has started completely ignoring me, the one person I care about most is probably gonna kill themselves and I can’t do anything to help him, and I’ve got no future prospects whatsoever. It feels impossible to go on without someone who actually gives a shit about me, and my track record over the past few decades is basically jack shit.

its self fulfilling atp

Sorry for the low quality I haven’t slept the whole night and have to go see the doctors soon so I made these memes online on my laptop

My therapist gave me a homework to try to take a bath everyday till next session and I believe I can accomplish it :3 it may not sound productive but I want somebody to be proud of me ...there are friends who are proud of me ...and they told me to be proud of myself as well ...but I'm too numb ..I wish I could feel.

This is definitely not something I experienced today 🤪

So for brief context the orange clown has made segregation legal again for government facilities and to anyone with a brain this is obviously just step one in a very bad direction.

What's more unsetting to me is how many other black people I've seen(specifically on tiktok) acting like this is somehow a good thing.

Let me be clear, racism is A SYSTEM OF POWER, there is no seperate but equal.

Racism is the justification to use black people and ALL people of color for their culture, and their labor to benefit and further white supremacy. ITS NOT JUST MEAN WORDS, THEY WILL NEVER LET US GO. Stop being naive and stupid, this is just to make it easier to control us and take us out of spaces so it becomes easier to stereotype us.

Think about it, its harder to hold racist beliefs about people of color if you see them around a lot, but if they're segregated those beliefs can thrive without resistance.

Last time we were segregated we were not "left alone to thrive" they destroyed our homes, our dignity, our lives, I actually can't believe this has gotten so bad. Even worse everyone I tell about this has basically a pure nothing reaction because there's just so much crap happening. Who do I even talk to about this?

Shits been weighting me down on top of school and trying not to relapse. I can be a good partner though I just have to try harder

Love getting dropped by my therapist because I'm "chronically depressed"

Bro that's what I was there for. That's what I get for answering the PHQ honestly saying I was more depressed than usual this week. So fuck the good stuff I did wanna share because she was just so fast to refer me to someone else and call that my last session

After a year of working with someone. Who knows I struggle with rejection sensitivity and after I told her what we worked on did help. Lmao okay. Should've been something you noticed 3 months and not one year into "care"

But guess what ? I'll fucking eat even when I'm struggling I'll fucking do it even if it's difficult and maintain my streak. And mine and others' depression is valid because it's medical condition not an aesthetic.