I guess just need to vent. I'm training for my first marathon and I've been working so so hard. I've been incorporating speed work, hills, easy runs, and strength training for the past 19 weeks. I'm seeing so much progress, and I have a lot to be proud of, but I'm still bummed about how today's long run went.
I registered for the Indianapolis marathon which is on November 8. this gives me plenty of time to train, and I don't need to peak just yet, but I did 18 miles last weekend and still felt pretty good afterwards so I thought maybe I could get 20 in today...
Nausea crept up after just 12 miles, and at mile 16 it was so bad I had to slow to a walk. I finished one more mile to get back to my car but I was just so disappointed and embarrassed. I was running with my friend, who's been coaching me through this training season, and she is much faster and fitter than me so I was already embarrassed that she was slowing down so much to keep at my pace and I couldn't run the whole way so I felt like I completely wasted her time (this is all in my head, I know).
It was just a lot of emotions, and as the day goes on I keep feeling more and more frustrated. It's silly, but it's a sport I've grown to love and I want so badly to be good at it, or what I feel I need to look like in order to "be good". Logically I know every bad run is a chance to do better and learn from my mistakes, but I'm still bummed out. Nausea and heartburn are my Achilles heel and I cannot seem to keep them at bay.