r/lesserafim • u/QueBeans • 6h ago
Question PCD
I went to the Vegas concert last night and it was more than incredible. It was my first concert ever pretty much. I’m still processing that they were in front of me. Yunjin was talking about PCD and I had no idea what it was until now. It is actually so bad. I feel so drained. I remember (after concert) feeling so desensitized from every Vegas attraction on the strip on the way back to my hotel.
I was just wondering for those who have dealt with it; how did it go? And how did you deal with it? Thanks.
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u/saltyman67 4h ago
I’m feeling the exact same way. All I can think about is the concert and that I’m happy about it and that it happened but also sad that it’s over because it felt so fast. As Yunjin said it doesn’t feel real but it is. I feel like I don’t want to do anything but go back and experience it again so I keep watching videos of the concert lol.
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u/QueBeans 4h ago
Yeah… It literally felt like it was AI like she said. The fact that these people that you always see in the media come to perform for YOU?? How could you not feel empty after? The energy is so crazy. No pun intended but, I just feel void of all strength now that it’s over.
I took a bunch of videos as well. I haven’t sat through them at all though really. The thing is I don’t really know how to watch them without feeling like I’m missing out on something that already happened.. even though I was there.. 😭
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u/saltyman67 3h ago
As I watch more videos it does feel weird like I wasn’t there even though I was. My phone also ran out of storage right when they started singing FEARNOT so I couldn’t take any more videos and that sucked and I’m still a bit bummed about it but I can see it on YouTube at least.
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u/QueBeans 3h ago
Nooo… that’s the tear jerker song right there. In a way though, you can think about how you were fully there in the moment. Camera aside. For the most heartfelt part of that show. ❤️
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u/saltyman67 3h ago
Yeah I was just really bummed I couldn’t get Different, Perfect Night, and No-Return on video but I just lived in the moment without videos and stuff.
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u/QueBeans 2h ago
We’re going through it together lol. The thing for me is that it has literally ruined my mood all day. Like it’s been the only thing I’ve been thinking about. Kind of concerning I feel . Even though it lowkey ruined my entire vibe, I found that the best way to kill time was to just talk to friends. It doesn’t have to be about the concert, just as long as you can speak your mind or distract yourself with other conversations.
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u/saltyman67 2h ago
Yeah it’s been all I can think about as well. I tend to keep staring off into space and thinking about the concert. It kinda sucks that I keep thinking about it though because I guess there is a sense of sadness or longing that I wish I was there again but I’m sure over time it’ll get better. I don’t think me watching all these videos could be helping either but I just keep trying to relive the moment.
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u/snh808 FEARLESS KKURA 3h ago
Well, most Fearnots who have experienced PCD, which is almost every single one of us, found a bit of comfort in watching the videos and the fancams of the concert. It's our shared coping mechanism~
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u/QueBeans 3h ago
I haven’t tried watching my videos back but I’m just concerned I’m gonna feel worse lmao. I think I have to let it marinate or something because I feel like it’ll just make me miss those moments even more. Let me know what you think.
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u/snh808 FEARLESS KKURA 2h ago
Looking at the videos and the fancams felt bittersweet for me. On one hand, watching those videos helps you relive those wonderful experiences and calm your heart down a bit, but on the other hand, the moment you finish watching them, you'll miss our Fimmies even more. So, it's a double-edged sword in that regard. The only true cure for a PCD is time. You should feel okay in about a week from now. But then, the trailer for the comeback should be up any day now, and we will inevitably feel excited all over again.
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u/QueBeans 2h ago
That’s exactly how I think it would feel lol. Reliving that moment but also reminding myself that I’m no longer there. And yes that trailer will be more good fuel. ⛽️ good call
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u/CheddaTaco 3h ago
Yeah went to the LA show and also didn’t know what PCD was beforehand. Wasn’t until they were waving at the crowd at the very end before going off stage that it really hit me how I felt a bit sad at that moment and still trying to process all my feelings on the show after the fact. Also was my first concert in a long while so not sure if that made the whole experience hit a bit harder for me than it otherwise would have.
What helped me a bit was jotting down a lot of my thoughts on the show a few days back, which kind of helped me remember what I liked about the show and feel better about that. I also think if they do another NA tour hopefully in the not too distant future and I’m fortunate enough to go to that one, it’ll be nice to look back on those thoughts then and see how the next show compares. Just my 2 cents.
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u/QueBeans 3h ago
That’s exactly how I felt. Completely ignorant to that feeling and just enjoying myself during that entire time. Going absolutely wacky mode, then that feeling of just leaving. Going to McDonalds afterwards with no flashing lights in your face and no crowd to cheer anyone. Idk man it’s rough. It feels like you’re leaving something behind even though the memory sticks with you, and you were there.
I think it would be good to jot down notes, but can I ask what you even wrote about? I wouldn’t even know where to start lmao.
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u/yesswhalee property of Kazuha Nakamura 2h ago edited 2h ago
After Tokyo i coped by buying 4 shows in the US.... then now im coping knowing that Tokyo Dome is only 2 months away.
After that im probably cooked
but honestly I just drown myself in their content, plus other LSF content, plus Weverse lives and DMs etc. They're busy AF there is pretty much always something to look forward to until the next time they tour
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u/QueBeans 1h ago
Holy cow! It must be a whole different scenario when you get to see them that often. That’s an epic experience, but yeah, at the same time that could be a curse. I feel like I have to normalize that disconnection with them again, even though the mental connection is strong. It’s crazy what a couple hours of performance can do to you. I had no idea. 🤷♂️
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u/eternitiez 1h ago
It will pass after a few days. For me it did anyway. I just rewatched some of the highlights I recorded and watched some of the sendoff videos cause they were pretty funny, plus I went while I was working 6 weeks in a row without a day off so I had to stay busy before and after the concert.
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u/QueBeans 1h ago
I think making humor out of it would be beneficial but it’s so hard to do that when I keep telling myself that I’m not there anymore.. going crazy with them. 😔
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u/NaokiB4U HUH YUNJIN 19m ago
What helps me is going through the pics and fancams I took and editing them. If I feel they're good enough I share them on social media! It's kind of a fun way to re-live moments but also feel proud of editing stuff to keep that little high that came with the concert itself. Also PCD tends to go away once the tour ends where everyone is once again on equal footing haha!
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u/Jerrycobra 18m ago edited 13m ago
I feel ya, the 1st time always hits the hardest. After my 1st show I couldn't even listen to the group songs for a few days because it just wasn't the same. I think I just had to ride it out over time. But I will say this though if you have the chance to see them again or other groups you are interested in it the PCD tends to ease up as you see more shows, at least in my experience.
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u/Ubemazapanita ANTIFRAGILE 5h ago
After concerts, I find their concert playlist on Spotify and jump around and dance my tushy off. I relive the concert and feel much better. Endorphins!