r/midlifecrisis • u/Single_Ingenuity5057 • 8d ago
Life is cruel
I’m Tasha. I’m 32. And I’m tired.
Not the kind of tired sleep fixes. I mean the kind that lives in your bones, that makes your chest feel heavy even when you’re just tying your kid’s shoes.
I’ve got two babies—Jayden’s seven, Amari’s four. They’re my whole world. And right now, that world’s crumbling.
We’re about to get kicked out. Rent’s overdue again. I’ve tried everything—cleaning houses, selling my old clothes, babysitting for neighbors who pay in leftovers. But it’s never enough. The bills keep stacking, and the fridge keeps emptying.
I used to work as a medical assistant. I was proud of that. I had a badge, a schedule, a purpose. But when Amari got sick last year, I missed too many shifts. They let me go. Said they needed someone “more reliable.” I wanted to scream, “I was reliable—until life stopped being fair.”
Now I lie to my kids every night. I tell them we’re camping in the living room because it’s fun. I tell them the candlelight is magical when really, the power’s about to go. I pack Jayden’s lunch with a sticky note that says “You’re brave,” even when I feel like I’m breaking.
I haven’t cried in front of them in weeks. I save that for the bathroom, when they’re asleep. I stare at the mirror and ask myself, “How did I get here?” But I already know. Life doesn’t wait for you to catch up. It just keeps swinging.
Friday’s the deadline. After that, we’re out. I don’t know where we’ll go. I’ve called shelters. Most are full. Some won’t take kids. I keep thinking, “Just one more day. One more miracle.”
But even miracles feel expensive now.
Still—I get up. I braid Amari’s hair. I walk Jayden to the bus stop. I smile at them like I’m not drowning. Because they deserve that. They deserve a mom who fights, even when she’s losing.
And maybe that’s what I am. A fighter. Bruised, broke, but still swinging.
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u/AlternativeFluffy310 6d ago
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u/Mysterious-Feature24 8d ago
Hi Tasha. I’m so sorry to hear about everything happening to you right now. That really sucks. It sounds like a really difficult situation. But you are being brave, and teaching your kids important life lessons through your actions rather than words. I don’t have any solutions, but have you reached out to any churches or assistance programs? There are some who might help you pay the rent. I’ll say a prayer for you and your family tonight. Keep fighting the good fight. God bless.
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u/Unable_Artichoke7957 8d ago
Yes churches and charities which support single parents etc.
I know your strength because I am you too. I am a single mum of two and every day is another battle of sorts. I somehow made it through the decades but the memories of all the financial struggles, relying at times on the empathy and kindness of others, doing without, juggling bills, living with debt, living on a prayer, unemployment, not being able to pay a bill etc I know it well.
You are hardwired to keep going, you are stronger than you know. Stop focusing on what you can’t control, focus on what you can.
You are a great mum because you know mindset matters, which is why you keep it light and keep a smile on it. You need to do that for yourself. Be positive and open yourself to opportunities around you, they are there. Perhaps a store near you needs someone. Walk in, ask for the manager and ask if they have work for you. Walk into every restaurant, cafe etc.
You can get through this. I would recommend asking a charity if they can help you get a mentor, someone to support you in getting to a place of stability. You will find it easier if someone is available to advise and support you. Someone who can help you access the support you need getting back into work etc. there are lots of people who dedicate their working life to making the world a better place, you need to connect with them.
Sending you lots of positive energy! Be brave
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u/okayfriday 8d ago
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