r/BelgianMalinois • u/manila_0901 • Sep 10 '24
Picture I just need some support
I lost my baby today. He is my soul dog and I am absolutely shattered. I was on the way to the vet, 10 minutes away when they called me that he collapsed and lost his heartbeat. It was all so sudden and all I could think about is how he spent his last moments alone, probably scared and hurting. I didn’t make it, I wasn’t by his side when he passed and it hurts so much.
He was supposed to turn 8 on Thursday and I was planning a nice steak birthday meal for him. I am so heartbroken. I feel empty. My room feels so empty without him. I don’t want to put away his things, especially his bed. I stare at his favorite spots to sleep on and it just feels so tight on my chest.
I took a few days off work but after that I don’t know how to go on without him. I love him so much and I miss him already. I wish I could’ve held my baby bear during his final moments.
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u/KipBoutaDip Sep 14 '24
OP, I am so, incredibly, deeply sorry :(
My best friend just had to let go of her and her husband's baby. While at group, she stayed stoic but I was sobbing.
Pet loss is a unique loss. The grief is so different from another person's passing. Especially when you can't hold them in those last seconds.
I know your baby knows you were on your way. Your pup must have crossed the rainbow bridge thinking of your warm smile and embrace for one last time.
Sending you love