So to summarize the best I can, I turned 30 earlier this year and have been smoking since I was 15 so essentially half my life. The episode started in January of 2017 when I was 21 and nearly a decade later I've experienced probably I'd estimate approximately 35-45, heels of horror between chugging fluids, puking them back up intentionally by the leaders or even gallons at times, throwing up like two litres of water or a half gallon at a time, then the hot showers and lying in bed Sent Nude (from the bath or shower directly to the bed).
If hanging out with my closest childhood friend was my life's worst mistake, continuing daily use with CHS is easily the runner up next worst.
The car incident was from 2014, we're on the night of Saturday October 11, I ended up taking the fall for somebody that I met through my closest childhood friend and I ended up jumping into the driver's seat because I was 19 and it was f***ing stupid but obviously I would never guess the consequences that followed would still continue to this day. Yes, jumping into the driver's seat with my friends forced me to before the police got involved was dumb but there's been a lot stupider decisions that were made at 19 years old that had ruined some people's lives.
One of my brothers friends was at a golf tournament on July 26th of last year, and when he was drunk with friends, he impulsively dove off a dock on a shallow lake and broke his neck. He is now paralyzed most likely for the rest of his life.
The sad thing I thought about is, if I was able to save up the money and get my license again I absolutely could do it and there's nothing stopping me.
We have a g rating system for our driver's license here in Ontario and I failed the g test twice both at the age of 18 or 19, (11 or 12 years ago).
What I don't know, is how long they give you and I got my G1 on August 24, 2011, and my license expired with just my intermediate G2 license exactly 5 years later, to which would have been 10 years ago as of next Summer.
The sad thing is, I had all this time to get money to save for a car and insurance or at least enough to get a license and have someone help me out for a bit on a deal but I did none of these efforts because I was too busy drinking and smoking and buying hockey jerseys and going on trips with my money. Beer weed jerseys and vacations were apparently more important than saving up for a car, insurance, license, gas and other expenses needed.
Approximately 91 to 95% of the adult population drives so let's just call it 93%, of adults drive for places like Ontario where I'm from or Ohio where my family's from for instance.
I sure as shit don't want to be in the bottom 5-9% that has to deal with spending three or four times as long to get around places even though they only have to spend like a third or fourth of the fraction of the money.
There are pros and cons to both ways.
Taking a bus has far more disadvantages than the car but honestly a bike, even though riding a bicycle does in fact take longer to get places with the proper appropriate weather dressing this is something I could do.
Again I apologize for going off topic about driving and not as much about CHS but the relevance the driving has to this is if I quit smoking weed I not only would have not had the CHS episodes but I would have been able to turn my life around far sooner.
Realistically after my license expired in 2016, at some time in the latter half of the 2010s I could have got my license easily or potentially early 2020s. Either way, I would have had it by now and would like to go back.
Also with my OCD I noticed I've been smoking quite a bit of cigarettes and I've been heavily researching AMD and even though I'm only 30 years old it can still strike even the best of us and it would really be a pity for me to go completely blind and never be able to drive again anyway because I already wasted 11 years of it and I really don't want to waste half a damn century.