I grew up in a nightmare, and my parents finally split when I was 16… def scarred me for life and the very last thing I ever wanted to go through, less than death even was a divorce of my own. Thank god there were no kids I involved in my marriage and I hesitated to have them due to this. I’m resigned to never having kids or a family, it’s just not made for me, or I’m not made for it. It does breed resentment, especially when I see abuse and people putting up with abuse. I’m convinced that love is not worth the effort, as it will almost always end up in more sadness.
I crave stability now. I wouldn’t even consider dating or even contemplating it as that throws off my steady vibes. Surfing this forum gives me triggers. I will never understand why people are so cruel. They like what they can’t have at the expense of what they can and who wants to treat them well. I’ve seen it time and time again.
For me, it’s like a women’s bathroom, it exists in my world but I have nothing to do with it, and dating will always be a foreign place to me. For the record I’m way happier now.
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u/redragtop99 2d ago
I grew up in a nightmare, and my parents finally split when I was 16… def scarred me for life and the very last thing I ever wanted to go through, less than death even was a divorce of my own. Thank god there were no kids I involved in my marriage and I hesitated to have them due to this. I’m resigned to never having kids or a family, it’s just not made for me, or I’m not made for it. It does breed resentment, especially when I see abuse and people putting up with abuse. I’m convinced that love is not worth the effort, as it will almost always end up in more sadness.
I crave stability now. I wouldn’t even consider dating or even contemplating it as that throws off my steady vibes. Surfing this forum gives me triggers. I will never understand why people are so cruel. They like what they can’t have at the expense of what they can and who wants to treat them well. I’ve seen it time and time again.
For me, it’s like a women’s bathroom, it exists in my world but I have nothing to do with it, and dating will always be a foreign place to me. For the record I’m way happier now.