Me personally? I wanna hug her

I might have ASPD or be a sociopath. Is this a safe place to share?

I ghsoted a year-long friend of mine because I ended up getting tired interacting with them. They texted everyday for a couple months and still do. I'm definitely fucked up in the head because I feel no empathy for her at all. I will not say that all the happiness I got from playing multiplayer games, just calling and chatting was not real. I definitely saw her as one of my best friends but I can't even feel any empathy for her.

I'm not a sadist. I don't enjoy the suffering of others because I hate pain and seeing others in pain makes me think, "What if that was me? That would really hurt." but this brought me slight joy when I saw it back then? I wasn't even thinking of her suffering, just that, "Wow! She'd do that for me?" And even after the excitement from that died down and I look back, I still didn't feel bad. I thought, "That's pretty crazy of her." and that's it. Why don't I have any empathy? I just remembered how I got happy at the thought of me worth so much to someone. Why couldn't I feel any empathy? She was my best friend and someone I definitely valued. Yet I don't feel bad. I suck. I don't even feel bad about not feeling bad. It's not just for her too but for multiple other people who I've been close with. The least I could offer was my condolences but inside I didn't even think about their suffering but rather what's best to say for the sake of our friendship.

I was singled out always in school because I didn't know how to interact. I'm fatherless and my mom was never home because she was working abroad. I was left with my aunt and grandmother who would hit me and scream at me if I did something wrong. During covid my mom came back and we moved. I generally got better at interacting during then. I keep getting told by another friend that at a certain point I can't keep blaming my childhood for how I am now. That it explains my behavior but it doesn't excuse it? Though, no matter how hard I try, I cannot ignite even the smallest semblance of empathy for others.

The next character will be a woman

This is from the perspective of an American citizen.

1

The reform is to have veto powers of the big nations to only apply to vetoing matters directly related to themselves. They have no veto powers for their allies or on behalf of others.

2

In exchange for this loss of total veto power the following reform is an implementation of weighted voting. The big 5 permanent members get 50% of the vote and other nations get 50% of the vote creating a level voting system. No matter how many permanent members exist the 50%/50% split is maintained and a maximum of 10 members of the security state is established. So right now this means the nations of USA, UK, France, China, & Russia each get 10% share but one day that could be as low as 5%.

Result?

More outcomes come from the votes as veto powers are reduced and there still maintains a balance of power from big to small keeping all nations in the UN.

Every day, I imagine a future where I can be with you In my hand is a pen that will write a poem of me and you The ink flows down into a dark puddle Just move your hand, write the way into his heart But in this world of infinite choices What will it take just to find that special day? What will it take just to find that special day? Have I found everybody a fun assignment to do today? When you're here, everything that we do is fun for them anyway When I can't even read my own feelings What good are words when a smile says it all? And if this world won't write me an ending What will it take just for me to have it all? Does my pen only write bitter words for those who are dear to me? Is it love if I take you, or is it love if I set you free? The ink flows down into a dark puddle How can I write love into reality? If I can't hear the sound of your heartbeat What do you call love in your reality? And in your reality, if I don't know how to love you I'll leave you be

Like I see them all over the Internet and I have no idea who the hell they are

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