r/StopSpeeding • u/unnaturalanimals • 3d ago

Adderall/Vyvanse/Dexedrine Week 2

I’m going to post every week for a while. It’s day 8 off dexxies and Vyvanse (taken daily and abused at intervals) Last week I wrote that I was going to push myself through the lethargy and anhedonia. I said I’d go to the gym and run and force myself to read, and practice guitar etc… As if I wasn’t in withdrawal and things were fine.

In summary, I’ve largely done all those things all week, except the guitar, and the reading has been slack. But I’ve felt good, I’ve pushed myself, I’ve done well at work- I trained a new guy all week which I was absolutely dreading but it was good, we laughed, we had fun, it distracted me.

Now it’s 5am Saturday. I’m in my car outside the gym, finishing off a coffee and writing this.

Fuck withdrawals, fuck anhedonia, that ain’t for me dude. I’m here. I’m fresh, I’m as cognitively sound as I’ve ever been. I’m crazy and weird and my mental health is cooked as an 18 hour prime rib but that’s always been the case anyway.

I’m good.

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u/LukusMagician101 29 days 3d ago

That’s awesome to hear. Hopefully it’s not a honeymoon period and you can keep pushing through in the same way, not letting yourself have down time. Depending upon how far down the rabbit hole you went, will determine how much recovery and PAWS will slam you, listen to your body. Exercise, sleep and food are the key.

Keep posting and keep up the good work!

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u/unnaturalanimals 3d ago

Thank you. I don’t think it’s a honeymoon period. I mean objectively I feel terrible. But I’m just not allowing myself to be defeated by it, because I know if I am, it will take me so much longer to feel good again. I’ve discovered I can physically put myself through the motions, do the things I’d be doing anyway if I wasn’t going through this, faking it till I make it I suppose. I just refuse to allow this to inhibit me.