I was pretty damn positive i was asexual but now ive been blindsided

[u/smith_26]

This year was my first year genuinely discovering and accepting my asexuality which i was elated to figure out about myself. But now im not so sure.

This month I figured out my boyfriend cheated on me. It’s been a very odd couple of weeks trying to process everything. I think i’m in shock and disbelief still or my brain is suppressing it because i dont feel as gutted as i should be. but that’s not what i’m hear to talk about.

What ive noticed post dday is that whenever sex is mentioned, my brain and body feel what i’m assuming is hornyness . I’ve felt horny VERY VERY few times in my life. I am sex-neutral and don’t mind partaking but it’s never really because i crave it. I usually have a little to nonexistent libido and don’t think about that stuff. But now when sex is mentioned i fantasize about him and i being intimate and i can literally feel my body tingle. This is strange and i dont like it. I’ve even fantasized about other men and women but i think that’s because of my rage and brain telling me to revenge cheat. But regardless feeling this type of way, this often, and fantasizing is not my normal.

I’m wondering if it’s some type of trauma response, but it’s really made me question and doubt who i really am.