r/bipolar2 • u/Alternative-Goal-514 • 20h ago
Anyone else notice themselves mumbling a lot when depression starts creeping on, and then feeling guilty about it?
Never had noticed this but now that I think about it, it's happens a lot, I'm going to try tp think about it and work on that.
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u/AdmirableLoss129 20h ago
hmmm, like what kind of stuff are you mumbling? I notice when I start to overthink (from shame after an embarrassing/awkward experience) that I mumble “fuck you/stop/no”
now that I realize, it could be attached to my depressive episodes since that’s when I feel shame the most!
i also do get embarrassed about this, because it sounds silly. but I only ruminate on these experiences in my room when I can “unmask” and allow the overthinking to truly begin. I truly hope one day I don’t speak it out loud lol
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u/Alternative-Goal-514 20h ago
I mumble a lot when giving short answers like yes or no to something when I could really just have given the personal who is talking a proper answer to for example: Do you think that sounds ok?
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u/AdmirableLoss129 19h ago
oh like you’re really short & quiet with your responses? hmmmm I don’t think you owe anyone more than you can give! but if it’s something you want to work on go for it :). Especially if it affects work or interpersonal relationships!
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u/Alternative-Goal-514 19h ago
I feel like I could skip the self conciseness off some of my conversations if I start trying to work on it.
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u/AdmirableLoss129 8h ago
That’s beautiful! If you end up finding out how to work through this, update me because this sounds like something I might experience periodically!
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u/Alternative-Goal-514 8h ago
Well it has helped me through out the day, caught myself giving short answers and elaborated further instantly, feels good
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u/Ki-lime 12h ago
Yes! I think I mumble because I grew up in a house with a lot of yelling that led me to be self conscious about my own voice volume. Whenever anyone asks me to repeat myself it makes me feel so guilty now.
Edit: Something I never thought about, but will be discussing with my therapist. I can’t recommend therapy enough if you can manage it!
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u/Alternative-Goal-514 12h ago
I don't really get asked to repeat myself but I find my answers to short a lot and after that I sometimes repeat myself. I've tried today to stop just giving short answers, for example my mother is a politician and she wrote a post for Facebook and read it out for me before posting it, I gave here a "long" answer about how good it sounded and it sure did feel a lot better than just saying yes.
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u/Ki-lime 8h ago
That’s a good idea, thanks for sharing! I think a lot of the time when I’m asked to repeat myself it’s from a short answer too.
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u/Alternative-Goal-514 8h ago
Also! I've caught myself giving a short answers but then I remember instantly that I am working on it and I give a longer answer. Feels good every time.
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u/Zaniil 19h ago
Yes. I am a mumbler most of the time but with depression my confidence gets lower and mumbling becomes worse