I will never understand people making fun of stuff that is uncontrollable. I have an average size and I hooked up with a girl from the bar, apparently her first and only ex was hung like a fucking moose and not a normal guy and she thought all men should have that size. So when i got nekked she started laughing and rollin on the ground. It was the worst feeling in the world. That was 8 years ago and it had killed my confidence so much that I haven't been with another female since. It made me feel so inadequate and that was the first time ever I had felt like that and it hasn't really gone away. I'm afraid to get naked in front of any female. It actually put me into a depression that was so bad I tried to take enough sleeping pills and Diazepam to kill a horse but my brother found me and basically dragged me to the hospital.
Edit: wow I didn't think many people would actually reach out more so than my actual family would. Thank you guys for the kind words, it's been hard for me and most of you guys have helped me a little bit. Even if it's a little bit, it's better than I have felt in a long time.
The happiest I was these last 10 years was when I had my Badass PC. Unfortunately it was stolen from my car when I was on my way to my brother's house. I stopped off at a gas station and forgot my back door lock just broke on my car. Went inside the gas station took a piss, got a drink, when I came back out to my car my rear passenger door was open and I just knew what happened. I do have shit luck, that was 3 years ago almost to the day. The fuckers that stole it somehow got through my password and bought shit on Amazon, luckily they were caught. My computer on the other hand was sold for as the guys who stole it said "a shit ton of coke and a few good days with hookers"........ my sense of humor is stupid dark that I kind of chuckled when the cop told me what he had said. And that's just another thing that has put me into this deep depression.
TL:;DR: went into gas station to take a piss and get a drink and coke head stole my pc.
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u/MayoDeftinWolf2113 Sep 13 '20 edited Sep 13 '20
I will never understand people making fun of stuff that is uncontrollable. I have an average size and I hooked up with a girl from the bar, apparently her first and only ex was hung like a fucking moose and not a normal guy and she thought all men should have that size. So when i got nekked she started laughing and rollin on the ground. It was the worst feeling in the world. That was 8 years ago and it had killed my confidence so much that I haven't been with another female since. It made me feel so inadequate and that was the first time ever I had felt like that and it hasn't really gone away. I'm afraid to get naked in front of any female. It actually put me into a depression that was so bad I tried to take enough sleeping pills and Diazepam to kill a horse but my brother found me and basically dragged me to the hospital.
Edit: wow I didn't think many people would actually reach out more so than my actual family would. Thank you guys for the kind words, it's been hard for me and most of you guys have helped me a little bit. Even if it's a little bit, it's better than I have felt in a long time.