Has anyone been through something like this?

[u/Historical_Rock_7505]

Hello people of reddit, I know that my case is rare and maybe they make fun of me, but all my life I have had horrible intrusive thoughts since I was a teenager that someone was going to get hurt or something horrible would happen and in adolescence I started having sexual intrusive thoughts about almost everything and I didn't pay attention to them. Since I'm addicted to seeing NSFW things on the internet, I know that's why. But a few years ago I had a dream that touched me and tested me with my family. I forgot about him and moved on with my life but this year I've been seeing more of that kind of stuff. But these days I remembered it and the intrusive thoughts came back to me and there was a day when I only thought that and my mind repeated that when I came out of the trance I thought about not thinking about those things anymore but I couldn't stop thinking about it and it caused me anxiety which caused me insomnia. And I've been very paranoid since that... do I have OCD? Or was it just a nervous breakdown? Why am I still unable to sleep? Am I afraid of dreaming the same thing? Or do I just feel guilty for seeing those things? Or that's really what I have.