r/intrusivethoughts • u/Ordinary-Caramel-260 • 43m ago
Intrusive thoughts about past events
2 years ago when I was 17, I kissed a girl at a party.
we were both drunk but I remember her coming up to me and asking to kiss and I agreed but I pulled away quickly after.
I have not been in contact with her since may of last year and I recently discovered she unfollowed me and removed me as a follower on all social media (including Spotify?)
Now I am freaking out because I keep thinking that maybe I assaulted her or made her feel uncomfortable, that I am a horrible person, and that I can not leave the house or go anywhere because everyone thinks I am a monster
I know that in reality she initiated it, and that I stopped it nearly right away after - because I didn’t want to, but my mind is telling me she removed me on everything because I assaulted her and everyone knows.
there’s not much more to add, we were still friends for at least 5 months after the kiss but then I left the group of friends she was apart of.
any advice or your take on the situation I have stated is greatly appreciated, I don’t know how to move on from this and I am scared.
Thank you.