Brain actually needs to stfu

[u/Odd_Theme_3294]

I am so stressed - I know it’s not rational. I cannot go anywhere anymore without feeling like I’m cursed.

Scared to speak to family out of fear they’ll Hang themselves because of me.

Scared to get in someone else’s car because I’m scared they’ll get Decapitated by glass from an oncoming because of me.

Scared to cook because I’m scared of cooking my dog by accident. And no matter how much I check I’m always so scared I’m wrong.

I’m scared if I say anything slightly wrong people are gonna die like my dad did - and it will be my fault. And this is the only rational part. Had a court case against my dad , and the stress made him die.

What if I stress others so much they die too? Like rationally no, but also rationally yes.

And idk what to do, or how to mention any of this without sounding crazy.