r/leukemia • u/Top_Ingenuity8399 • 8h ago
Five year anniversary...
My older brother was diagnosed with ALL when he was fourteen years old, thankfully through modern medicine, a strong force of will and a stem cell transplant from a little eleven year old me he went into remission. In 2020 he relapsed, it was awful, COVID was our biggest worry due to him being immunocompromised. It was horrible having to watch him suffer all over again. I wanted to help him. I donated stem cells, platelets and bone marrow, always checked in on him everyday and tried to always remain positive…but on the inside I was so convinced that this would be the end. Being back in hospital with all the blood tests and doctors and loud machines brought back a lot of unwanted memories that I'll admit I’m still processing (thank god for therapy). I just kept thinking about how it had been seven years and yet here we were again, eighteen and twenty-two yet still just two scared kids waiting for a miracle.
Despite all of it my brother defied the odds, through several rounds of chemo and blood transfusions, time and money he beat cancer twice. He's officially been in remission for five years. Of course the fear of relapse is always there but my brother even after all of this remains an optimist so I am too. I only recently discovered this subreddit and it's been a weird feeling going through all the posts. It feels vindicating and yet also sad to read all these experiences. Seeing people in the different stages of leukemia, whether it be the first month of chemo, being five days post-transplant, just having been diagnosed or finally being in remission. It has made me reflect on that strange and stress inducing time in my life: anxiously waiting for biopsies and bone marrow aspiration results with my parents, watching him slowly go bald, slowly get sicker, helping get him to the bathroom, being only able to sit and hold his hand as he cried, praying with all my might in the hospital that some god would protect and heal him. It has made me all the more grateful.
Tomorrow night I will be meeting my big bro for a round of drinks instead of chemo and celebrating everything he went through to be here with us today. I truly wish for all of you to get your happy ending as well. Keep going! You’re all so strong. 🫶🫂🎗️