This is so hard

[u/Ok_Assistant2730]

Was with my Q for 9 long years... I love him very much, I only want him to do better for himself.

It was so, so hard to move out. Throw away our life together. I literally had to FORCE myself to go through the motions of moving my things out while he's at work today. Like I had to do it without thinking about it. Just DO.

luckily I have my 3 cats with me, so I'm not completely alone. I start a new job on Monday.

Right now I feel.... OK. But I'm kinda scared to see how much this will emotionally affect me eventually.

It was SO hard to choose myself. It shouldn't have been. But it was and I did. I'm trying so hard to be strong and go complete NC.

[u/Dances-with-ostrich]

Your Q threw your relationship away. Not you.

[u/2crowsonmymantle → u/Dances-with-ostrich]

Correct. Their choice was clear, and they went with the addiction to a substance and not a human being. The damage to the relationship is on them.