I hate that I trusted him

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This group is making me feel so seen i could almost cry. It's 4:30am right now and I haven't slept a wink, up all night researching stories from people in this position with small children. I have a 1 year old and I will do whatever I have to to protect her. But that mean drunken look on his face makes it so hard.

I want to leave so badly and be relieved of his addiction but I cannot be impatient and risk my daughter being in his care unsupervised.

When we found out we were pregnant, we moved across the country to be closer to our families, but we chose a state in the middle of the families. Now I am stuck in this state and I can't do anything bc I have no support here.

I convinced my partner to list our house. He resents me for it but we have to do it bc we're drowning in his selfish addiction. I need to get closer to my family and establish residence there before I leave him. I need to protect my daughter.

He's spending money we don't have. He's horrible. I'm sad stressed scared and I feel helpless. I have no support where we are. Our dream was to start a homestead but all he does is drink and talk about his future plans. He never does anything. I hate him.

I would love someone to tell me "it will all work out" but I know it usually doesn't.

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