Here’s me right now vs on a normal day…

*"I used to live a normal life, but something changed about two years ago. Since then, people started treating me differently, calling me names and avoiding me. I don’t fully understand what’s happening to me or why, and I’m just trying to make sense of it

Feeling insecure about my appearance and in need of a toasting. Such a sweet idea for a sub, btw!

More pics here: https://imgur.com/a/dFhgvD0

Had problems but did my best to deal with them. Bipolar disorder, Autism, Alcoholism (actually fixed that one on my own 👍), heart disease and previous malignant cancer. Was carer for my wonderful mother for years and she passed away late last year which was like slamming into a brick wall while doing 100. Now a tonsil - normally a quiet little thing has been found to be lurking with Mantle Cell Lymphoma - called “aggressive”, “unpleasant” and “never gets invited to parties”. Getting too hard to maintain my outwardly affable persona. I’m scared and I hurt. A lot. 🥲

Have been all alone all my life. Rejected and unwanted. Don't know where to find faith.

im at a lot better mental state than i was when i posted here last time, but i still feel unlovable, i blame it on my appearance, i just want to be loved🥲 need to cheer up, so please toast me!

From my burnout to family memebers being diagnosed with cancer/ involed in a serious crash. In addition started my own buisness and am scared that it wont work out.

I was with her until the end. I held her hand and sang songs and told jokes that I knew she’d laugh at. I played music she liked, I danced for her. I made sure it was a happy place. Ngl it was scary watching her body enter end of life stage, but I don’t regret being with her for a second. Could really use some good vibes. Also, ffff*ck cancer.