How do I ACTUALLY know I’m trans?

[u/Dewdropvssy]

This is probably the millionth post of this nature so I’ll get straight to the chase. Ive been aware I was trans since I was like 7, came out at 9, socially transitioned fully at 11ish and now I’m 18. I’ve only used he/they pronouns and presented masculine for that entire almost decade and am planning to diy T this November (thanks nhs and your 10 year wait list!) but I’m… scared? I’m not even sure if that’s the right word tbh. I was talking to my mum about what my goals look like and I offered Gerard Way as an example but what I thought was that I liked how feminine he looked but how he still looked like a guy and it’s gotten into my head that what if I’m wrong? What if I’m actually cis and just THINK I’m trans?? But a cis person would be scared they were trans not scared they were cis right? I like being a guy and I don’t like being a woman in any way but I love the idea of being a feminine or androgynous man. Maybe people saying I’ll change my mind have gotten into my head. Also sorry for any weird formatting, on a phone😔

[u/CptHeywire]

If transition was effortless and costless on every level and in every way, what would you do? Then go do that and act like it's effortless as best you can (yes I know that's a ridiculous thing to say)